Sometimes when you first meet somebody, you want to think their intentions are good, you want to think that what will come out of all of this is something that you want, something that you've been waiting for. You start to like what you see and as any human being with feelings would normally do, you start to get your hopes up and think ahead of what'll happen in the future. You find yourself at first, just going with the flow of things then slowly working your way into the next step. Then as time passes by and the whole situation isn't turning out to be what you wanted/expected it to be because the person misleads you and has you fooled. You then become let down and dissapointed. You put some of your time and patience into this but in return, you get nothing. The only effort being put forth was your very own. And that gets you nowhere.
During the time, you didn't realize how much you were doing but after everything is all said and done, and it's over you begin to realize how much you would have been willing to put into all of it. But it was all you. That makes you wonder why things didn't work out, because you did everything you thought was right but in the end, as they say, It Takes Two. But not only that, people change. In a matter of time, too. Maybe you weren't even fooled. You had an idea of that person for who they were but as time came, their personality changed. They might have been a good person when you met them but their surroundings and their inner circle has an influence on who they are; good or bad. People change for the worst sometimes so you have to understand that you can't blame it on yourself, you did everything you could, everything you thought was right. Although they could really be a genuinely good person, it's just that they're showing a side that you didn't expect. So in the end, even if you feel like you don't have closure, you can say you tried. And you can't go wrong with that.
It's hard accepting the facts and coming into terms with reality but it has to be done. You can bitch and moan about the past, it's happened already and sadly, no matter how discontent you are with the situation, you can't change it. It's no longer in your hands, you no longer have a say in things anymore. You can't make things better because you can only help yourself and you weren't the problem so the main thing that needs to change is the other person and if they aren't willing to then so be it. Most importantly, your feelings played a role in all of this and that's the only thing that upsets you because there is a lack of sympathy&feelings from the other side. So you took the time to even care for nothing. But on a brighter note, this leaves you a lot to offer, offer to somebody that is the least bit worthy of you. You deserve better but for that to happen you have to allow yourself to see better by letting go of something that wasn't meant to be. Open yourself up to others even if you are afraid that the same thing will happen. Not all guys/girls are the same but the only thing that distinguishes themselves from the others are their actions, which most fail to do.
With all this said, you're meant to go through all the bullshit in order to get what you deserve. You work hard, play harder. A part of life, basically.
----Nothing too personal. Just my take on things.
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