sweetheart!

teehee.

must have's!

i found my next items. hehe.

xxmel: i really want that denim skirt!!!

xxmel: i wanna go get itttttt

SoPhAnNy : LOL

SoPhAnNy: ur so badd

xxmel: there goes a week's worth of lunch money

xxmel: LOL

SoPhAn: o0o that romper is cute

xxmel: yeah i like it too

HAHA.



THE SKIRT! it's adorable. i hope they have it at one of the LOCAL forever's.



spring break, of course!

Don't stick your P in her V!

Today i woke up and thought 'I HAVE TO GET OUT'. i slept all day Saturday because the pain in my arms from all those needles kicked in. soo i went to Pinkberry with Sophanny and Seyla. Then we rented movies and just ate&chilled and their house.

i don't tolerate bullshiters, fakers, nor players =p

that's the rules, we don't make them, we don't break them.

i don't sweat 'em, i forget 'em and find a way to shake 'em.

benefit of the doubt.

i'm not one of those silly girls. i actually know what's going on. but stubborn might be the word that fits me best. anybody can tell me what i'm doing might not be a good idea but if i find some way to think that it is, believe i'll do it anyway. i know the people closetest to me sometimes know what's best for me but of course i'd find some way to convince them and myself that i'm right. i know i shouldn't believe everything i hear but it's hard when it's everything i WANT to hear. there probably all lies but i want to believe there's some truth in them anyways. i thought YOUR idea of second chance would be worth a try. but this shit's fucked up.

as i race to the finish line, better yet the top. cus i don't wanna hit rock bottom, bottom line.

i just wanna go back, take it way back, all the way back and we start again. do it over and we straighten out and we work it out. cause i don't wanna be without..

so what we gonna have, Desert or Disaster?

i got 3 shots and a blood test today =( my arms were almost dead but i still came out the office texting with one hand. LOL. that basically took the energy outta me. i just wanna sleeeeep.

Yikessssss!

I hope Karma doesn't bite me in the ass for this oneeeeeeeeee!

POCKETCHECK!

Today me and Pheap pulled one of the best pranks ever! Afterschool we went to Coldstones and Joseph left his phone behind so i thought it'd be a genius idea to pretend like we forgot it there! lool. Soooo.. we set his phone to silent and when we got to his house Pheap asked him to see it and he checked his pockets and the look on his face was priceless. LOL. he went craaazzyy accusing everybody of having it! talk about a bitch fit! HAHA. so when he left the room i gave it to Johnny and he hid it by the tv. it was the funniest thing ever watching both him AND david freak out. DAVID more than joseph. he even called their mom to lock the phone! hahahahha. After a while of those bitches going crazy we moved the stuff blocking his phone and i called it so it lit up. It was a hell of a good laugh tho!

you need a girl that's A-List, not one that just barely made it on a list.

hehehe. im a bumble bee! i think?

i went to sophanny's house afterschool. then martha came over and we went to michaels and lakewood mall. i taught martha about 'taking advantage of your innocence' hehe ;]


& i hope karma doesn't bite me smack dab in the ass! loool!
enough bad deeds for today =p

Conner!

my mom's side of the family is.. diverse. LOOL.

Say Cheese MEESHA!

Likaaaaa.

after del amo i went to have dinner with some of the family at karisma's house. then sandy came over to my house and we questioned my brother about the girls we heard about.

"she made you pay for all that shit? oh fuck no she's using you. don't talk to her she's a bitch."
"yeah that's some shit i would do"
hahhhahahha. if my brother ever try to talk to some girls like that.. i may be younger but, I KNOW THE GAME!

"$120?! and all you got was a kiss? fuck that you should've got more! ya'll better get married!"
"i don't like her already!"

"she don't got a phone?!?"
"nah, she probably didn't have minutes"
"wtf?! now she don't have minutes?!"

NOW, if you everrrrrrr talk to a girl who work but don't have a phone..LOOOOOOOL!

i don't call it shallow, it's called being real :]

i hate the wind.

so i tried going back to sleep but i couldn't.
off to del amo mall.

i'll NEVER lose my keys :]

shoppingbagdrizzy.

the non-violence skits for xi at lbcc went good yesterday. they had the drum cafe in there tryna hype people up early as hell in the morning. i wasn't feelin it. lol. i didn't stay for the whole thing though because i 'had to go to a meeting'. but afterwards i went home and sophanny came over. we chilled and watch lifetime. lol. then went shopping with sandy&solina on hunington beach. i got the cutest booots everrrrrrrr from american vintage. im offically broke now but it was worth it =) because i know nobody else will have them. time to RIP those other fringe boots. i see them everywhere!

i think i woke up too early today. my head is killin me.

partyinyopants!

i spent today with sophanny, martha and jenny aka SOpoopie, YOpoopie, and MOpoopie. 6th period, jenny and i came over to my house and watched Tough Love and ate while waiting for martha since she was trapped in school. mission failed. she couldn't find a way out. then sophanny came and scooped us alll up and we went to go get genghis khan.

"where the party at?!"
"in yo pants"
"can i get in yo pants?!"
hahahhahahaha. silly boys.

afterwards we went to the impreshuns meeting. we learned how to do graphic designing to fix up the site and what not. when the meeting was finally over, we headed over to joann's fabric to look around for the upcoming fashion show.. stopped by forever then sophannys house afterwards for movie night..sorta. we watched a lil bit of wood creek..or lost creek or whatever the fuck it was called. lol. i had fun with those bitches, like always =) they are just something else!

i am soooo not looking foward to tomorrow morning. 7 A.M for the lbcc skit for xi =( waaaay too early. time for me to knock out!

♥MELIpoop.

now how we really suppose to carry on as an Item, if you got more baggage than a carry -on item.

sooooo i just found myself giving everybody advice on relationships and what not. and i thought to myself like WTF. what i NEED to be doing is to take my OWN advice! lol. i need it as much as anybody else.. or at least i think so. nevertheless, i'm goooooood. :] it sounds good sounding like you got your shit together. LOL!

i'm with smarty.

teehee.

can you spell FITNESS.

today felt like a friday. staying in class for about 3 hours this time wasn't so bad. everybody loved my brownies =) i swear im gonna be the next betty crocker or something! lool. afterwards during lunch time or whatever that was me, pheapster, simone, and david went to subway. david ditched us for some in and out. then joseph and kenny came by. afterwards we went to david&josephs house to kill time..and pee. i just had to take a picture of the sign on their door..



HAHA. "hey guys, no SHOE" of course david would.

lol afterwards we went back to school. time went by pretty fast plus i only had 2 classes left. afterwards i went home and knoccckeed outtttt. then got ready and got to see my FBFF. loool.

and i fall in love with girls caught up in super- ficial glamour.

i just woke up from a nice long two hour nap =) no hw for me tonight since i was in my zero per. for about 4 1/2 hours this morning while other kids didn't come in till 12. and other bitches went to IHOP. ahem!* hehehe. but actually today wasn't allllll that shabby!

short hair, don't care!

IT'S A BOY..now! hehehe.

p.s

i hate all you lucky bitches who get to go to school late tomorrow and wednesday =(

Bubba sent me this =)

it woke me up from my nap but it made me smile!

Three C's.

i was talking to Melanie today and she mentioned the "Three C's". Every girl should be Crazy, Classy, and Cool. She definetely has the CRAZY down, and on point. The epitome of a Mean Girl. I love it!

deja vu.

=)

sophanny, martha, and i went to guppies again. this time to get some shaved ice. they saved me from a boring ass sunday! lol. i woke up around 8ish, ate, went back to sleep, READ, then got a phonecall from those bitches. afterwards we went shopped around again. i just picked up a shirt from forever. it was one of those urges when you just feel the need to buy SOMETHING, anything! then they got me home nice and safe =) now i need to pick up from where i left off in that stupid book!

poopies.

This morning i woke up at 7 A.M! ..to plant trees with Martha! lol. It was this little community service event and some of the xi/omega were there. but me and martha were practically useless. thank god i actually thought about my outfit.. while in the meeting yesterday! lol. i decided to go casual with a long grey and black striped cardigan, black tights, and red chucks. martha on the other hand...wore sandals? lol. so we tried to help them plant a few trees in the freeezing cold while trying not to get dirty! then sophanny came and scoooped us up and we went shopping :] on a budget too! damn you reccession! aftwerwards we went to guppies to grab a bite to eat. then target&forever and headed to martha's place. i had to post outside for a while so she could lock her big ass dog up..who btw understands spanish! loool. so we chilled there for a while. then me and sophanny headed to target&the beauty supply to stock up on nail polish. headed to my house, ate, chillled, and pampered ourselves :]

busy bee.

school was horrible. my body was hot, my nose was irritating me, my eyes felt puffy and my face was felt dry. so i came home right after 5th period, took some robitusson&ate, fought with my brother over the back bathroom..LOSS, washed my hair in the front bathroom lol, did my make up and walked to the back of the school where they wouldn't let me in! i even used the extra cute voice with the guy.."PLeeeeassssssseee" +the puppy dog eyes but they failed me this time! so i had to bust a bitch and walk thru the long ass parking lot over to the front of the school. which was a work out, if i must say! my thighs were aching by the time i met up with martha. then we bussed it to the impreshuns meeting. this was like my first time riding the public bus! minus that one time in middle school. "hey if you give them a 5, will they give you your change back?" loool. we chilled there for a bit and then there was a l.a.m.p meeting where they had some guest speakers. the only one who i actually paid the most attention to was this guy named Storm who is a songwritter and has written for lil wayne, robin thicke, etc. and this lady gave us some writing tips on like what to do when you have writer's block and how you shouldn't give up when you come across that. which hit close to home for me, since last night i was told i needed to discuss my next article topic and i was clueless! but thanks to melanie i was on top of my game at that meeting! "yay i get to write in my planner!" hehehhe. well time to wrap this up. i need to get some rest! up bright&early tomorrow.

cosmo.teenvogue.intouch.

i added some more magazine cut outs to my room. this time to my book shelf to hide the messiness behind the glass. 4 more or so to cover. asdfgsdfghjkl. it's very time consuming. i wanna go out and buy a bulliten board to put on the wall. and put up that picture frame i got for my birthday last year =X overall, my room is finally CLEAAAAN! minus the closet. hehe.


now back to this essay. im laaaaagggin' itttt.

because i found it on jenny's page. lol

happpy 18th birthday denisee :]

i baked brownies for her, but she was a no-show =( lol so i passed them out 2nd per. and they were gone in about two minutes. so they were pretty much a success. im getting gooood!

i just got another sudden urge to clean my room. i've been saying i was gonna do that for about a week now. time to at least get STARTED!

HEAVEN!

I was talking to this girl in my 2nd period today about the whole getting in for free on your birthday. i remember hearing about it but i always thought it was too good to be true, like there had to be a catch. but NO! it is what it is, no fine print! i find that just lovelyyy. so i decided to get on headstart and register. LOL. but for some reason the site is down right now..on my computer at least. i don't think i'll ever get tired of disneyland. i absolutely love the vibe over there. everybody is always so HAPPY! and everything over there is beaaautttiffulll.

HATE IT!

i woke up with the sniffle's todaay =(
red nose&watery eyes =/

MRS.OFFICER!

Purpleeee Kisses?!

catch of the day.

hahahaha.
funny how i thought of that while walking to class and i started giggling to myself. lool. talk about an upgraded hatermark! sadly, that was the only funny thing that happened today. i woke up this morning feeling terrible. i seriously did not wanna get out of bed. monday's are always a drag! i don't even know why i got up so early, it took me literally 10 minutes to throw on a hoodie& jeans and put my hair up in a wet bun. i went to school at 7:20 counting down till 1:45! as always, i'll try to redeem myself tomorrow for the way i was looking today. hahhahaha. now back to hw. since i came straight home and slept for 3 hours. i hate how my loud ass ringtone always interrupts some goood sleep!

get it honnaaay.

they're baaaaaack.

because i got new bangs.

but you probably couldn't even tell.
lol

i know we're past tense. it's been a minute since.

The school was practically dead today. it was kinda nice though. afterwards i went to sophanny's house. we chilled in her room and waited till school was out to go pick up martha aka birtha. looool. her mom made some bomb ass salsa which btw, i'm kinda craving for right nowwwww! after we picked up martha we finally went to go get some taco bell! had a little picnic at scherer park since there was nowhere else to eat. then we ran around looking for sponsors to help out with our upcoming fashion show for the launch of the magazine. it was kinda tough in way since some of those bitches didn't even read the letter!! we tried a local thrift store, then went around cerritos and s&g. afterwards, chilled in the parking lot for a bit. i got a haircut in the backseat of sophanny's car. lol! well a little trim :)

=(

today was ANOTHER long day. lately i just haven't been feelin it in the morning..to get ready and stuff.
"i wanna go homeee, i'm not feelin myself today"
AMEN! lol. we made up our anti-violence skit 6th per. i play the peacemaker =) afterwards i was plaaanning on going home since i've been complaining about how much i wanted to the whoole day but i decided to stop by the lil jordan idol thing. we stayed for like one peformance. after i hung around with steph for her ride to come since she was on one, and i'm a good friend =) AND my phone was dead.

p.s. who wants to donate to the NumberJuan Foundation?



hahahahhaa.

crazy, sexy, cool..i don't know what's come over me. this ain't how its 'pose to be.

"aye girl can i get yo number"
"HEEEEY!"

loool. hi crystal! hehe. we're in the process of figuring this thing out. she's a newbie. hahahah. jk ily. anyways i had plans to finish my history hw today but when i came home i just wasn't in the mood. all those college lectures from everybody pratically gets me focused but when the overload of work comes in, im back to the old me. junioritis. loool. so i bullshitted my way thru some hw like i always do, took a nap although i didn't mean to and i've just been sitting around the house. why the hell don't they have mulatto on limewire?! i need some decent stuff to listen while bored in class.

& when you open up your eyes, i hope you see more.

Today went by awfully slow. the weather was crappy which gave me an excuse to LOOK crappy. no make up.. OUCH. lool. stayed in the library 6th period, like a sqaure, to kill time. couldn't even concentrate in there, but got my phone charged =D i feel empty without it, or when it's dead. then i went to my history class..got some extra credit after staying in there for like a fuckin hour doing shit. finally got home around 4ish. this week is going by SLOW! tomorrow i have to stay afterschool again cause some of the xi girls are making up an anti-violence skit to perform at lbcc. friday, senior ditch day. the whole crew's gonna be gone. "no more people stepping on my boots, hitting my bag, elbowing me in the head" loooool. martha's gonna cut my bangs for me! i was gonna try it myself but i don't wanna take that risk :X impresshun's meeting and running around town to try and get sponsors for the magazine. and stop by some places to find funiture to glam up the office :) i hope it doesn't rain!

wtf's wrong with meeeeeeeeee?!

truth hurts. but thanks steph, lol.
i don't get ittt. how can something soo short lived STILL have an effect on me. like, this ISN'T ME! little shit like this usually doesn't phase me. it wasn't even that serious. to be honest, it wasn't even really anything to start with! so why the fuck is it still bothering me? to the point where i wanna do something about it, but there's NOTHING to do. i can't fix the situation. even if, i have way too much pride for that. athough at times it feels like my pride is thrown out the window. and it's not like i don't have closure. i got it on my own. i understand but i don't wanna believe. i need to get it together! =(

turn the wheels back.

i couldn't sleep last night. so i was listening to music on my phone and going through old text msgs. hah. laaameeeee =( i miss november.

houstatlantavegas.

Cus he lives in a mindset that I could never move to. Until you find yourself, it's impossible to lose you. Because I never had you. Although I would be glad to...

I'll probably go and tattoo... your name on my heart,

I swear,

I start,

To think,

That I'm going crazy.