Downtime.

It's funny how no matter how big of a front i try to put on, the people closest to me still know what's REALLY going on. Like how Melanie can tell I had a bad day even through text messages or how I can act completely normal at school but Sophanny can still tell I'm hiding something. There's no easy way out! lol. I have noticed that lately i've just been wanting to keep to myself though. I feel like there are some things i need to figure out on my own. But i should realize that i do i have genuine people who'd like to be there for me and are trying to but just don't know how because of how complicated i am! I really am going to blow up one day if i just keep my feelings bottled in. I tend to stick to that method though because i think, in a way i'm protecting myself. So that i won't be judged or get hurt. I've realized how sensitive i am. People wouldn't expect it from me and hell, i didn't even expect this from myself. Im a mess right now but at least I'm in the process of GETTING IT TOGETHER!